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I'm unwilling to deny the existence of 
free choice merely because I don't 

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understand it because it looks to me 
like that's how people are,

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that's how they expect to be treated and
that societies who structure themselves 

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in accordance with the idea that people 
have free choice actually work now that 

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doesn't prove that there's free choice,
but people have been arguing about that 

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forever.
So,

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but it looks to me.
So those are two possible means of 

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integration and that I think what you're
doing is feeding one or the other 

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constantly.
And I think you probably choose which 

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one to feed.
I think that's,

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and I mean that's how it feels that way 
to me as well.

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Like when I look at my own,
you know,

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maybe you're really aggravated with 
something.

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Maybe you're aggravated with your wife,
you know,

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or,
or,

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or your child or something like that,
you know,

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and you're feeling kind of nasty and 
maybe even know that you're in the wrong

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and an idea comes into your head.

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You can think I could say that and you 
know,

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you could say it and you know what it 
would do,

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but then you pause and you think,
would that make it better or worse?

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And then maybe you go to hell with it,
which is quite the thing to say.

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I've got a little story about that in a 
minute and then you say it,

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but you knew,
you knew that you took the low road,

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right,
and you know it and then you're guilty 

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about that and defensive and that makes 
the fight way works because then there's

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no damn way you're going to admit that 
you actually did that and so things do 

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go to hell.
And so.

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So here's,
here's an ugly little idea.

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So that's,
that's,

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that's relevant to the question.
So imagine you're playing around with 

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cocaine.
Now I'm using cocaine because it's very 

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addictive,
but it's a very interesting chemical 

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because it's a dopaminergic agonist.

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And what,
what dopamine does is two things.

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It makes you feel like what you're doing
is worthwhile,

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but it also imagine that there's a bunch
of neurocircuits that are active and 

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then they get a hit of dopamine or you 
do in those neurocircuits get a little 

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bit more powerful.
Okay,

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so it.
It has a rewarding property which is 

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that it makes you feel like what you're 
doing is important and it has a 

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reinforcing property which is.
It makes neurocircuits growth.

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So now what that means is that whatever 
you were doing just before you took 

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cocaine,
grows.

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Okay?
So now imagine there's a bunch of 

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different things that you do just before
you take cocaine,

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but there's a string of decisions and it
one decision point is the same for all 

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of those difference occurrences.
And that decision point is because you 

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know you're in trouble and that decision
point is well to hell with it.

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Okay?
So then you think that each of the 200 

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times that you take cocaine,
even though you do it different places,

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but that one thought is there all the 
time and that thing grows because you're

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reinforcing it and it grows and it 
grows.

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And it grows,
and so now that's in you,

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that's part of you.
And it's the thing that says to hell 

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with it,
okay,

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so now,
and maybe that's not such a good thing 

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to grow inside your brain.
So then you,

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you're addicted and they take you to a 
cocaine treatment center.

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And after a week you're no longer 
physically,

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physiologically addicted.
You're not craving.

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You don't have a problem as long as 
you're there.

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But then they take you back to your 
normal environment and you see like 

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cocaine,
Joe,

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you're a friend.
And as soon as you see him up,

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that thing comes in,
Bang,

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you're back on the back on the to hell 
with a track and that's while you're in 

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will,
you're where you will end up too.

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If you reinforce that particular 
perspective long enough.

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So that's a ken in a sense to the this 
decision making process.

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You know,
if you,

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if you take the low road,
then that winds and it gets a little 

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stronger because everything that wins 
neurologically gets a little stronger.

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It's like a Darwinian competition.
So one rule is don't practice what you 

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don't want to become because you really 
do become that.

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It builds,
it builds itself right into your neural 

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architecture.
And that's one of the terrifying things 

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about addiction,
you know,

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because you think,
well,

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it's kind of psychological.
It's like,

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yeah,
kind of.

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It's also kind of neurophysiological and
you build a one eyed cocaine monster in 

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your head if you hit yourself enough 
with something that reinforcing.

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So yeah.

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Thank you.